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[hatesthefood]

I just wanted to say thanks to everything that tried to help Euphie yesterday. I'm glad she has so many caring friends.

Chief? I think I need the next few days off, if that's alright? I'm a little tired.


Someone else I care about shot me. It's starting to become a regular thing, isn't it? Maybe I should take that as a hint.

... it's so weird. My chest still hurts, even though someone healed me. Still bugs me, too. I have no idea who it was and I really really don't like that. I think I'd rather have woken up in the hospital all tubed up. At least I'd be drugged enough not to think about what Euphie did... well, not a lot, anyway. Now, I have all the time in the world to dwell on it. Gee, thanks, oh mysterious benefactor.

... I wonder how she's doing this morning. I don't remember a lot from yesterday.

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[deadly_legacy]

[She saw the network post from Ken and hovered over it for a moment before seeing what was there. Her throat felt tight and thick as she took it in. He...he doesn't sound too hurt or mad at her. But...

She shot him.

He trusted her and she shot him.

Even if she never wanted to. Even though it was the last thing she wanted, she still picked up his gun and used it on him.

He's told her about his past. She knows he's been betrayed by the people closest to him. And now... And now she's just another one of those people, isn't she? It hurts.

Ken...

But she can't find the voice to offer him her regrets. She pushes the device away and turns back into her pillow. She wants to be stronger for him, but right now she feels very weak.]

Here now. voice | private

[deadly_legacy]

[Hours have passed. She has found herself listening in on his conversations until finally, she shuts her eyes and wills herself to speak.]

...Ken.

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

... Euphie. Are you alright?

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[deadly_legacy]

[Already wants to start crying again. She needs to be stronger than that. What would Cornelia say? Softly.] That's what I should be asking you.

Ken... I'm... I'm so sorry. [She doesn't like the way it sounds. It's not enough. It's just not enough.]

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

I'm fine. It was a curse. You couldn't help it.

voice | private

[deadly_legacy]

That doesn't... [Pauses.]

You trusted me and I shot you.

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

.... it was a curse. It happens.

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[deadly_legacy]

It's not that easy. [It can't be.]

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

Please don't.... don't do this. I'm fine. I'm healed. Syaoran's healed.

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[deadly_legacy]

[And now she's making it worse, isn't she?] I'm sorry. [Her voice isn't very steady.]

Is... [Takes a moment] Is there anything I can do for you?

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

... don't cry, Euphie. Please don't cry.

voice | private

[deadly_legacy]

[You know somehow there is nothing like being asked not to cry that tears down the dam holding it back.] I... [Yes, you can hear the crying now.] I'm trying. I'm sorry.

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

Euphie, I promise I'm fine. I've talked to Syaoran, and so is he. I just... need some time. A few days.

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[deadly_legacy]

[Sniffles a princessly sniffle. Yes, they are totally different from a common sniffle.] Time... [Softly] A-all right.

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

... I'll come see you tomorrow, if you like. I'm sure I'll feel a bit better by then.

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[deadly_legacy]

Ken... You don't have to if you want time. I understand. [But as much as she felt like she was dreading seeing you now she would really, really like to see you.]

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

.... okay.

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[deadly_legacy]

I'll...see you when you want to see me then?

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[bladed-siberian.livejournal.com]

When we're both ready, I guess.

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[deadly_legacy]

...All right.